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It's like tasting a carrot grown in your garden compared to a one bought in a supermarket. You know the taste, you will remember it and have it for your life.
Go back to your children time of your life and watch it. Get lost in the story. Don't think only watch. Then drink your favourite tea.
You see or want the teas because someone else like it, said something interesting about them. Still you don't see the value of such tea but the price. Doubts and worries come. Simply let them go and buy cheaper teas.